Feeling Depressed For Months?
I have been depressed since maybe last September. So it all began September 2010 and it has only been getting worse.
My brother has been talking about these government conspiracies. He talks about how they are trying to ruin the USA's economy so they can make it a police state and control it. He talks about how they spray aluminum and nasty chemicals in the skies so they fall down on us and poison us. He also talks how they put fluoride in our water supplies so we will also get poisoned. They're trying to kill us in any way possible so that we are easier to be controlled when they make it a police state.
He also said that they are planning to shut down the internet since that's where the truth is. If the government is able to cover up all this stuff and rig news reports on TV, but not the internet where people are free to post whatever, then they want to shut it down. I also heard that they want to shut our tower electricity off altogether.
At first I thought this was all just talk and no truth, but I started to think about it. I see the chemicals in the skies. I see that those tiny jets spray it in a checkerboard-like manner. I also see people talking about how tap water is extremely filthy... that's the fluoride dumped into it. I believe all this stuff now.
They are printing tons of money so they can ruin the economy. More money means more inflation, also making the dollar worth less and less. My brother says the economy will be completely sunk in just a year or by the end of this year. That has made me feel depressed.
I do not have any proof against it. All I can do is believe it, and I wish I had never heard of these conspiracies. I wish I never heard of them. But I did hear them. And ever since, I've been severely depressed. Any time something fun and fantastic happens to me, just before I get all happy, these conspiracies pop back up in mind and I am depressed again. I cannot focus in school or in almost anything.
I am 15. Well, I'm turning 15 in two days. So I'm 14 right now. I've always wanted to become an adult, get a job, get a house, and have my own life that isn't constantly being controlled by parents. I really hate my siblings a lot. They are mean to me, and I try to be nice as much as possible but they act as if I am the meanest person in the family, where I think it is the complete opposite.
I want to be an adult. I want control over my life. The problem is that I now know I will never become an adult. The economy will be ruined in a matter of a few years or maybe months. Being kid isn't fun, for those of you who are thinking that. I do not have money, no way of making money, constantly doing schoolwork against my will, being pushed around by my family, living in a messy house that I would keep clean if I lived by myself, But I now think I will never be an adult because of these stupid government conspiracies...
I also want a gun. I need to defend myself, but because of all this gun-control, I cannot. The government doesn't want us safe, they just don't want us wielding guns so that they will be able to control us all easier.
Someone please help me. I have not been truly happy in forever. Whenever something good happens, I am sad again. I can never be happy anymore. No one can help me it seems.
If you believed what ur brother told you( which isnt true by the way.), why not hear something else and believe that.
Let me tell u this>
Lif is beautiful, life is easy, there is enough for every one, enough of every thing. u desrve to be happy and there is lots of reasons to be happy for.lookforward to becoming an adult and enjoy ur youth.
every minute of ur life u have a choice, so chose to believe this or what ur brother said. wat u think about u bring about.
peace begins with you, its an inside job.make it happen.when u r at peace ,we all be at peace.
Worrying about things beyond your control (particularly at your age) is pointless; your brother is misguided and your concerns are unfounded. Specifically, there are numerous sources of information regarding our water supply and how it ranks among the best in the world. If you are concerned about your future, prepare yourself by learing everything you can.
You also need to recognize that your ability to reason is not fully developed until the early 20s, and the hormonal changes of someone your age creates confusion.
Self-pity is easily the most destructive of the nonpharmaceutical narcotics; it is addictive, gives momentary pleasure and separates the victim from reality.
John W. Gardner
The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others.
Mahatma Gandhi (1869-1948)
A man is but the product of his thoughts, what he thinks, he becomes.
Mahatma Gandhi (1869-1948)
The mind is its own place, and in itself
Can make a Heaven of Hell, a Hell of Heaven.
John Milton, Paradise Lost, Chapter 1 (1667)
If you break your neck, if you have nothing to eat, if your house is on fire - then you got a problem. Everything else is inconvenience.
National Mental Health Consumer Self-Help Clearinghouse