shes not crazy, shes hurt. cut her some slack! anyway you just have to hold your head high and know that he would want better for you. hurting yourself wont bring him back and im sure that you have people that love you.
I'm so Srry I think u should try to move on sweety he would want u to be there on earth to remember him and keep him in ur heart
Get the book, another door opens by jeff wands, believe me, its good.
You are just hurting right now and you should try to be around people who care about you.
You need to get into therapy, sweetheart. You don't deserve the guilt or the continued agony. Don't idealize him just because he's not here anymore.
You did nothing wrong, you did the best you could given the situation, in fact, and this sounds like it was his inevitable destiny.
Talk to a therapist, heal and go live the life you were *meant* to live.